Goodbye.
I don’t think I’ve ever done something as difficult as this.
I can’t express enough how much I’ll miss you.
How much it hurts to put more and more things into a suit case just to get in a car and drive myself away from you.
I just wish the tears would stop coming.
Every time I think I’m okay it hits me again.
I’m a big girl now. I’m supposed to do this. This is how it works.
I don’t even have the energy to write my feelings out in a way that sounds good to you.
I have to keep reminding myself that it will be okay. That someone else somewhere has felt this before.
Because this moment I’ve been dreading for so long is finally here.
Where we pack up our things and leave each other.
I never thought saying goodbye would be so hard.
I miss you and I love you.
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